Kittywfz

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Hi! It's early in the morning 7.17 & yet im not sleeping yet! ):
Been too much stressing and so much more, that my body's failing on me. I just wished someone would lift off all my troubles....
Yea, im dedicating this post to...
Loo Wenbin.
Do you remember this....? It was the day when we fell for each other & i was mad at you for walking away with another girl & you didn't know? Remember the first hug? I'll never forget that. This might be the last time I'll call you babyboy.. Because I may not be appearing in your life again. Miss me alright? (':
Well, it was great. Knowing you 3 years ago, at a tennis table. When i was running home, & you running boys home. We didn't talk much then, we were only friends on Facebook I remember. I never thought we would be together one day. But, fate. It was fate that brought us together &; it twisted.
On 19/05/2012. I wanted to jot down every of our memories here, but it'll be too lengthy for you to read. So i'm only jotting some of them.




The 2nd day of being together, you asked me to accompany you to visit your granny at NUH. (: We took a train there. We talked about many things. About, our past, how we met. I can feel that we were getting closer and closer.. It was so awkward for me to visit your granny as I thought she was quite scary, but after all it was not bad. Your Ahma wanted coffee and you used alot of coins to get the coffee she wanted & then we headed straight back to your place. you were like a pig, straight coma. i couldn't sleep, & you were sleeping like a pig &; snoring so loudly adding to my insomnia. You didn't know i couldn't sleep didn't you? (: I love your snore, it was so mesmerizing and cute. I'll never forget that. Your granny is weak, & has to go dialysis. Please take care of her and be filial okay? I know you're a soft-hearted person & you're very filial to your granny. Continue to do that.. I hope you'll be what i thought you'll be.



This. Remember? I doubt you remember. This was the day, you fetched me on a bicycle around artpark & i nearly fell down. It was the first time you rode me on a bicycle, i hugged you from behind and you said i was sweet. After that, we started giving cold shoulders. A few minutes later, we were at the other side of artpark, you hugged me & told me to never leave you. You asked me to hug you tighter, & that you missed long and tight hugs. I could feel you, & i thought i would never be the same as your ex. But, instead i was worst. I'm sorry. I couldn't do what you wanted me to. You had alot of girls clinging on to you, messaging you & so many things. I had a rivalry with those girls that tried to snatch you. I was paranoid, i was so afraid of losing you. & you told me you'll never leave no matter what & you are someone who won't have a change of heart so easily. But, sometimes there are things we have to let go. Just because, clinging on may hurt so much more. Im sorry, for being your burden. I'm sorry for not being able to let you fall asleep in the night troubled, im sorry for not being a good girlfriend as i said i would be, i'm sorry if i've hurt you.




Pastamania, bukitbatok. I insisted on eating it & you straight away brought me there.
This shows that you really dote on me.
I mean, letting you cook for me when i was hungry every single night.. Buying sweets for me whenever i want them, you're like everything to me. You're perfect. At least to me. You're willing to spend every single cent on me. You used to say 'I'll accompany you wherever you go' in the past. NO MATTER WHAT. I know, people change. Now, you won't. You'll just ask me to go ahead my own... Do you know how much i miss playing around with you? You used to untangle my hair for me, wash my hair for me & cut my hair. We used to be so silly, kicking the flying cockroach together, playing together, tickling each other. I miss you spinning me around and piggy back-ing me. I miss the way you always say you want to hit my bunny tooth till its straight whenever it irritates you. I love the way when you always think of me wherever you go, & not forgetting me. Remember we used to bet kisses? Whoever finishes the lollipops, gets a kiss. & then i'll cheat by biting the lollipop & in the end i still lost. Or, whoever loses in poker gets kisses. You owed me 2000 kisses remember? I know, we've been thru lots and lots of hard & good times. & i'm sorry for my lies, my childishness.





@ Durian empire. When we got filmed by mediacorp COINCIDENTALLY.
We love eating durians. & even got a free durian 'ice-kachang' haha.
That was the day when we were photo bombed. &; we had so much fun, i know you didn't. But, i did. Because I was with you.
I know I never should've gave you up, but I don't know what to do anymore. I want to keep going on & on..


You know I love you, & I'll never stop. I miss the days whereby we didn't quarrel & start cold wars..




Good luck babyboy.

When we went to Carol's house to see baby Xavier. Remember how we loved little kids & babies?
It's been too much hurt. I know it's hard for you to forget about everything and start afresh. I know that you wont want me back anymore. But, what i thought was. If my conscience was clear, that's enough. Everybody in the whole world can lose trust in me, but not you. There's not a need for me to go to an extend to prove when you already don't believe me. I know you, even if we're back together you'll still blame me for everything. It'll hurt and worsen our relationship.. & i don't want that, i don't even want to lose you. Would you teach me what to do? Maybe, what we needed was some time to think it through. I don't know. I really don't know what to do. What granny told me was, you know your conscience is clear, that's enough. You've already explained, it's up to him to believe in you rather than asking you to do unnecessary stuffs. It's not that im afraid. But, what i said was the truth i can assure you. But, somehow we need to build our trust the other way round. The natural way. You need to learn how to trust me. You can use any way you want to scold me or whatsoever. Since, in your eyes i know what i am. A slut. I know whatever i did in the past or right now, you might think its all wrong. I need time to change, i need someone to constantly remind me of what i'm supposed to do.
Who'll be there for me when i cry if you're gone? Who'll cook for me when im hungry? Who'll irritate me when im sleeping and make me awake? Who will give me warmth and care for me as much as you do?..
I really miss you. After viewing the video you made in the past, i broke down. Why must we turn out this way? Was it me who ruined every single thing? I know you wont let me back into your life anymore. All those obsessive messages, attitude and so much more, im sorry. Thanks for the memories for these 5 months, they were wonderful.. I'll try to let you go. I will. If you're happy, i will be. I hope you'll find someone better than me. & show that she's soo much better than me. Please take care of yourself and drink more water as i know you seldom do. Eat more and don't everyday head out and play. (:
I'll miss you . 19052012, iloveyou. )':
Goodbye, love.






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